【 MUCH LEFT UNSAID 】

hello vampires.

2012-03-09T20:07:00.005-06:00

here's another update, with another random post.
but to start off, i would like to anounce that i will open a brand new blog on march 25th called HELLO SKIES. if you know that my obsession is, you may know what that blog will consist of. if you don't, here's a hint: it has to do with beauty. 8) hopefully, i won't give up on that blog though;;;

also, i bought anne rice's vampire chronicle. i have seen interview with the vampire and queen of the damned and i thought that both of the movies were pretty great (and filled with beautiful people *-*). and vampires are my favorite mythical creature. besides, i like reading. c:

i think that's it for this post. thank you for reading and have a wonderful day! :)

a quick update.

2012-03-01T16:52:00.004-06:00

hello! i hope every one is doing great.
i just wanted to write this quick little post to keep myself from going insane. i miss writing blog entries. u__u
anyway, i did this nail design about a couple a days ago, and i originally posted a picture on my twitter account.

isn't it cute? i saw the tutorial on cutepolish's channel and it looked really easy and simple to do, so i decided to try it out. i got loads of compliments on it. :) i had a little trouble doing it on my right hand though. "orz

dream log #8.

2012-02-13T18:48:00.004-06:00

i would've written this dream log sooner, but i had school. and once i got home, it completely slipped my mind. nonetheless, here it is! i would like to remind everyone for the umpteenth time who strange and unorthodox my dreams usually are. and strangely enough, this dream featured B2ST/BEAST's lee gikwang (which, not gonna lie, i was ok with). this is, by far, the longest dream log i have written/remembered. vivid dreams which you can remember are the best.

to start off, i guess i should describe the setting. it was post-apocalyptic world. the only building left standing was what looked like a castle, but inside was a laboratory. it was fairly nice. earth was inhabited by super humans (or humans with super powers) and regular humans (kind of like x-men). apparently, there was a war between the super humans and the normal humans. i guess we one (yes, i was part of the x team). later on, the world would run by one man who called himself a god, and who seemed to be the most powerful super human. might i add that i don't recall our boss' face. i beleive he was blond though. actually, now that i think about it, i think he looked like alex pettyfer omg.
anyway, me and some other x-men people didn't like something that he was doing, i don't quite remember what it was, but it had something to do with the way that he treated the humans. also, it seemed that all the other super humans could see that our leader had taken a liking to me (lol, ridiculous, i know). aside from that, i was the only ballsy one, so i had to go to his "office" to talk to him. none of us had ever been to his office/lab.
so i went off to this high-tech glass elevator which lead to his lair, but his guards wouldn't let me pass. so i used my power to get pass them by freezing them. (my power seemed to be the power of imagination, meaning that whatever i thought of i could have.)
i reached his office, which was also his lab, but he wasn't there. as i turned to leave, i noticed a case/tube/tank filled with water on the floor. i walked closer to it, curious as to what was inside. i leaned over and the shape of a human took form. IT WAS LEE MOTHER FUCKING GIKWANG. he was inside that tank, sleeping or some shit, which a shit load of wires connected to his glorious body. maybe it was a coma. he was also wearing nothing but some black breifs/boxers.
before i could react or do anything, i heard mr. bossman coming so i hid behind some random machine. from behind that machine, i saw alex sexypants walking over to the tank where gikwang lay, and he grabbed some wires that where connected to the tube. alex took the other ends of the wires (which were those suction-cup things) and placed them around various parts of his body.
the machine/tank then seemed to automatically charge itself, then alex pushed some button and electricity passed through the wires from the tube to himself. seemingly, it was like alex got his own power from gikwang, or he was just making himself stronger. it was like gikwang was his battery or some shit.
seeing enough, i then used my own power to go through the wall and back downstairs, keeping what i had seen to myself.
the next day, after battle practice i went back to his office for my original mission. (by the way, let me gloat on how bad ass i was. i did some kung fu shit and owned everyone.) same thing happened with the guards. when i stepped inside alex's office, i noticed that there was a wall between his lab/the tank and his office. anyway, alex boss was there, sitting like a total king and looking fine. he seemed to be ok with my being in his presence, which was good because you don't go to the king's throne without being summoned. ok, so i started to explain what the problem was (and i still can not exactly tell you what it is). he listened and told me he would try his best to resolve it. as i turned to leave, he told me to stop and sit and to have a talk with him, so i did what i was told. he got up from his chair and made his way so he stood behind me. then he said that he knew i had seen what had happened yesterday and i was like, "oh shit nigga. i am so dead." but instead, he took my hand, walked me over to the wall, waved his hand and did some weird voodoo shit and made the wall disappear, so his lab appeared again.
he took me over to the tank where gikwang lay and waited so see what would happen. alex pushed some button which drained all the water in the tank. he pushed a couple more buttons which made all the wires from gikwang's body disappear and the tank's glass slide away. about a minute or two later, gikwang opened his eyes, but didn't move. he looked around. then his eyes landed at alex's, then at me. he didn't move until he got alex's ok to get out of the tank, which he did. even though his body was amazing, he seemed tired and weak. maybe due to the power drainage that occurs every day from alex, or that he's been in that tank for who knows how long.
anyway, since i knew about alex's source of power, me made some sort of deal with me. i don't quite remember what it was, but it has something to do with me becoming his partner, and i was all like, "no way, jose." i don't remember what happened next, but i guess he said something along the lines of, "ok. you can leave now." so i did.
and idk. i guess a couple of days passed or something because then i don't remember anything. appearenly, i have come attracted to gikwang so i went back to alex's lab (when he was away, of course) and emptied the tank, trying to free my future husband. he was confused at first, but then he got angry/scared because he basically jumped out that tank, ran me into a wall, and told me to put him back in it. i was like, "yo nigga. calm yo tits. i just freed your fine ass from that frankenstein shit and this is how you treat me?" he calmed down a bit and let me go, but he still wanted to back inside that tank because he was afraid of alex whipping out the human race or some shit like that. but i eventually talked him into running away, and told him i would handle alex and make a deal with him using myself (because i was the second powerful next to alex and i better control of my power compared to the others). he agreed and so i started to show him the way out. BUT! unbeknown to us, one alex's professor scientists mother-bitchin' snitch went and told what was happening using his telepathy power (is that what it's called?).
alex got the wrong idea and was pissed. so he sent an army of his super human guards and disciples to get us. i mostly had to do the fighting (and i won, of course) because gikwang was weak. my finally made it outside, but there was alex, waiting.
alex was trying to shoot gikwang which some sort of poison shit that apparently paralyzed your mind so you can't use your powers. i tried to save gikwang and i got shot instead. i fell, bleeding. and then i woke up.

THE END.

ramblings.

2012-02-08T19:52:00.005-06:00

i have been debating whether or not to buy an instax camera, but ever since i discovered the mini instax app, i probably won't need it after all.
i have been dying to read the girl with the dragon tattoo, so i asked my mom if you would buy it for me. my uncle bought it for me instead while i was ordering his shoes. (thank you!) it's a very thick book, so it's going to take me a while.
i always get hungry before bedtime for some reason. but hungry for snacks, not a meal, so i went yesterday to buy some brownies. and while at the store, i bought these wonderful nail polishes. it wasn't supposed to be valentines related, but i guess it turned out that way. i hope everyone will have a great time this v-day, be it alone or with your soul mate. ❤ :)

this song is wonderful! ailee has a very mesmerizing voice. i am looking forward to her career.

first post of 2012.

2012-01-21T13:50:00.012-06:00

its been weeks since i last made a post! but nothing worth telling had happened, and when something did, my internet got shut down because we were getting a new internet service. i'm still beating myself over missing dress-up days on poupee girl. orz
anyway, now that some time has past, i have a couple of things that i wanted share. the first thing i wanted to share is that we had a theater show thursday! it wasn't a sell out, but a lot more people came than what i had expected. we (7th period theater class) had been practicing for months (even before thanksgiving break)! i didn't have a huge part because i didn't choose anything, so the teacher just kind of appointed me something. all in all, it went pretty smoothly. i am proud of everyone. :)

and before you continue, everything else below is in order of with they happened. and now, the second thing i wanted to share.

my class ring! i received it right before thanksgiving break. but i don't wear it much in fear that i might lose it. the first image shows my first name with a rose engraved in it. i choose the rose because it thought it was pretty and because my name means flower. then on top is my birth stone [october, opal] with, of course, my graduation date. the second image is of the other side of my ring is my last name with theater and arts engraved.

my mom bought me some of those new nail stickers! they're easy to apply and very handy. i think i will be some more. i decided to use them when all of my nails broke. /sigh u_u and the picture was taken about a week after i applied them, so they last quite a while.

some stuff i ordered from forever21. i really love that alex&chloe necklace. *-* the ring i'm not sure about. it's too small for me too, but i love the design.

remember the "in here" cover that i was painting? decided to start decorating the inside. the first picture is a guy with a tv as a head. clumsily painted it with watercolors because i'm in love with them. i like how the tie shading came out. :) the image inside the tv is actually a cut out from a magazine. the second page are lyrics from one of miyavi's songs, but i can't remember what song it is. :/ the letters are formed from magazine pages. i had to re-cut some of the letters to they would fit. it reads:

"i would live for you."

because living is getting much much harder to do nowadays. i really love how it came out! i will do more of these, just as soon as i find more magazines. C:

my dad bought me a new phone! he just came home one day, held out a plastic bag, and said, "your phone's in here." thank you. ;u; ♥ i've had my old phone for about 2 years now. it will need a proper funeral.

i was in dire need of some dotting tools, so i finally decided to get some! i bought mine from amazon for about $6. they're double sided, too! i thought it was a pretty good price. i also got some stamping plates. i had to be by the scraper and the image roller thingy (not pictured) separately for about $6. i got 25 image plates for $12, i beleive. i thought it was an excellent price. above are just a few of my favorites. the image plates and the tools used for it i bought at amazon.
my yesstyle stuff has also been shipped! but, we were not here when they arrived, so we have to go to the post office on monday to get it.

so far, 2012 has been great!

20111229.

2011-12-29T15:57:00.006-06:00

i'm sorry that this is 4 days overdue, but i hope everyone had a merry chirstmas! and just in case, HAPPY NEW YEAR too!
like every year, i got money as a present, haha~ but i'm ok with it. and my dad still owes me).
i ended up buying a couple of things from forever21 and yesstyle, even though i don't really like ordering from yesstyle because it takes so long to process my order. （￣へ￣） but i can't help looking at their stuff orz.

i got the shoes above in white because i really needed some new ones. i mostly wear my converse, and those or wearing out, but i've had them for a couple of years.

also, i went back and deleted a bunch of old posts, so the archives might be missing a few months, which really bothers me. but oh well.
lmao, why was/am i so dumb?!

IN HERE.

2011-12-21T15:19:00.003-06:00

i wanted a scrapbook to do other creative things besides drawing, something like this (with magazine clippings and such), for example, but i thought that they were too expensive. so i got a plain drawing spiral sketchbook and i decided to paint it.

( inspired by: classy life at weheartit )
i drew it on the day i got it, about two days ago, and i drew the back design as well. i started painting the front yesterday and i also finished yesterday. i haven't started on the back yet.
also, i case you're wondering "in here" is kind of like "inside my head."

flickr and stuff.

2011-12-19T18:32:00.006-06:00

today, we went out to see what we wanted for christmas. my sister wanted a laptop, i wanted a new iPod because i sold mine a few years ago. then i got an ipod touch and that one got stolen my freshman year in highschool that i got from my birthday. (and i still haven't recovered from the immense anger.) i might get an iphone, but i would still much rather prefer a new ipod. sigh.

i've probably mentioned this before, but it doesn't hurt to mention it again. i made a flickr account a while back. i will rarely update it, though. i'm not much of a photographer, sadly. u___u but this is something that i've just recently uploaded. recently meaning today.

( page 11. by krasnii )
my mom bought me a book for 25 cents at a garage sell (lol) without my being there. the book didn't really catch my eye, but i decided to read a couple of page. i didn't like it. and i've always wanted to try something like this, so i decided to try it out with this book. it's actually quite hard if you don't know that you want to say. •⌓•

i've also discovered this wonderful song by this amazing artist named phantom. i also thought that the video was nice. i thought that the ending didn't fit (maybe because i couldn't understand what they were saying), but the teaser actually shows the woman getting shot.

and don't worry! he's actually talking/singing about burning a hole in her picture from looking at it too much, not actually shooting her!

i've also been thinking about allowing comments, but i'm still not sure. ;A;
well, that concludes this post. until next time! ♥

11 questions.

2011-12-07T16:22:00.006-06:00

tagged by the wonderful lionel~

The rules are:
1. You must post these rules.
2. Each person must post 11 things about themselves on their blog.
3. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post and create 11 new questions for the people you tag to answer.
~~4. You have to choose 11 people to tag and link them on the post.~~
5. Go to their page and tell them you have tagged him/her.
6. No tag backs.
7. No stuff in the tagging section about "you are tagged if you are reading this". You legitimately have to tag 11 people.

11 FACTS ABOUT ME
1. chocolate oreoa > vanilla oreos.
2. i hate water.
3. i drink mostly coke/soda. my future is to have a kidney stone.
4. if no one takes the leader role, then i will, even though i prefer not to.
5. when i was young, i stole a coloring book because it had stickers. now that i look back, i feel really bad and stupid;;;
6. lay in my bed for like a hour until i fall sleep. my thoughts won't let me.
7. old super mario is, and forever will be, my favorite video game.
8. donkey kong comes in second.
9. i hate watching sports. i would much rather play them.
10. my music is literally universal, i have german french, spanish, etc. in my itunes, even though it isn't that many songs.
11. i enjoy late night drives.

QUESTIONS BY LINDA
1. What or who makes you smile?
just the little things. when people do something cute or funny or just a random memories.

2. What are your views on life?
i literally just do whatever i feel like doing and see where that takes me. if i make a mistake, i beat myself for it a little, learn from it, and the process repeats.

3. What inspired you to blog and why do you blog?
omg very one just had pretty layouts and interesting posts. first i only made accounts so i could follow them, but then i decided to try to actually post. ng them out.

4. Who is someone very close to you and why are they close?
my family. they are always there no matter if i'm in a good or bad mood.

5. Have you ever traveled outside your hometown/state/country before? To where?
yes. mexico, obv. haha.

6. What do you dislike?
a lot.

7. Who are your favorite bloggers?
these are just two from the top of my head: christian (dimskeletons) and sara (momentslikediamonds)

8. Favorite food?
CHICKEN.

9. Favorite singer or group?
big bang, 2NE1, epik high, and the GazettE to name a few.

10.Who is your closest friend?
samm.

11.What was the most scariest thing that happened to you in your whole life?
don't remember. i have terrible memory. u__u

QUESTIONS BY LIONEL
1. Who inspires you?
cliche, but music.

2. What is your Favorite color?
blue.

3. Contact Lens or Spectacles?
neither. 20/20. ;)

4. Do you like horror movies? Or do you like anime?
both.

5. What kind of music do you listen to?
6. Who is your favorite blogger?
answered.

7. What are your comments towards judgmental people?
go away.

8. What are your views in love?
oh man, i really do hope it exists because it looks so wonderful.

9. Do you find photoshop complicated?
nah. i had it for a while, so i'm ok at it. i'm still learning though!

10. Do you get hungry easily?
i get hungry randomly. i usually eat a snack or something before i go to bed.

~~11.Who are your closest friend(s)?~~
answered.

QUESTIONS BY XOCHITL
1. what inspired your blog url and title (if any)?
2. what is your favorite quote and why?
3. what is your favorite and worst subject in school?
4. what is your favorite snack and beverage to go with it?
5. who your favorite anime and cartoon character of all time?
6. describe your dream guy, be it fictional or breathing.
7. describe dream date and how would it end?
8. what is your favorite music video and/or song?
9. what is%2Fwas your favorite short story?
10. what are your favorite online shops?
11. what is your favorite jim carrey movie? lol

sorry, i can't tag 11 people. ;__;
and please don't feel obliged to do this;;;
i tag lysafae, mary, moonzkie, pink, erin, fey, and karise.

starburst wrappers can be useful.

2011-12-06T19:15:00.006-06:00

is blogger being a bitch in uploading pictures and deleting your template, or is it just me? :c
and my sincere apologies. i haven't been updating because frankly, i just didn't feel like it. /shot

but that's besides the point. so i randomly wanted starburst candy when i was at the star and then i completely forgot i had them days later. when i remembered that i had candy, i thought to myself, "these wrappers are pretty... (haha)" so i decided to use them to cover my new sketch book that ware bare from the front. btw, 1 king/share sized is what it took to cover just the front (or back, i haven't decided, lol).

finished one side!
i am currently in the process of doing the other side, i just need more starburst. i'm covering in a different flavor package! but it was the regular size, so i am now waiting until we go back.

also, during halloween, we made a sugar skull mask in art class. i had lot's of fun making. and i didn't use my own face to make it, we used a regular face mask that the teacher had to make the mold.

what's in my bag?

2011-11-10T17:14:00.003-06:00

(you can click on the image for a larger preview, and you can also click here to view the image with numbers to see what i'm talking about.)
so i saw this tag floating around for quite some time, and i thought this would be interesting. i hope you do it too! and if you do, i would love to see~ :)

[from left to right, top to bottom.]
o1. my lovely bag that i rarely carry. "orz i bought this at rue21.
o2. wallet that i love dearly. *u*
o3. carmex.
o4. mirror.
o5. gum-flavored lip balm. it tastes good whenever i like my lips. :D
o6. purple ipod shuffle. i still need a new ipod so i can listen to all of my music instead of just some of it. u___u
o7. band-aids just in case!
o8. coin purse that i got as a mini-gift from yesstyle.
o9. bag which i use to carry my camera and it's battery charger. it is quite handy.
1o. juicy fruit gum!
11. mascara and lip gloss~
12. cellphone.
13. keychains which still lack a guy but carry my usb, lol.
14. tissue.

FOREVER17.

2011-10-22T15:18:00.009-05:00

my birthday was on the 4th of this month, but my mom wasn't here to celebrate it. to make up for it, she bought me tons of stuff from forever21 and they arrived today! *U*
also, yes, i am now 17 years old, hence the title. it's weird. i don't feel any different from when i was 16.

i'll add individual pictures later~
[edit] i don't feel like taking pics of each product rn, so have this thing i made from pictures taken from forever21. :D

click on the image to make it bigger~ [/end edit]

lisa frank insp: rainbow leopard.

2011-10-06T17:11:00.005-05:00

it's been a while since i posted something nail related.
anyway, as a kid, i have always loved lisa franks' designs. they were always to bright and colorful. the art was also very cute and fun!
i saw a nail tutorial on youtube months ago, but i finally got ~~a little unlazy~~ around to actually trying out the tutorial. it's not perfect, but i am quite proud of myself. :)
i did the leopard pattern with a toothpick since i don't actually own any nail art brushed. but the tooth pick worked just as well.

skull sweater!

2011-09-27T20:15:00.012-05:00

if you remember this post that i made back in january, then you'll know what i'm talking about. i finally bought a sweat for $6, i beleive? or was it $7? anyway, i got it for cheap and decided to do my sweater.
first, i used a blue highlighter to sketch out the holes and then i started the cutting process. it was pretty easy, but the teeth were a little time consuming. it took me about an hour to get it all cut. and i accidentally cut the line between two of the teeth. /wrists but if you know me at all, i have an obsession with skulls. ;)
but all in all, i'm very happy with the results! :D

^ and the finished product after the wash!
[edit 10/3/11] wore it to school for the first time today and got plenty of compliments! it's supper effective! [end edit]

i received my books today!

2011-09-16T16:50:00.004-05:00

i can't wait to start reading them. :)

books and hair.

2011-09-12T18:23:00.011-05:00

i ordered some book from amazon.com! even better, they're going to be shipped tomorrow! *U* not only that, but jyj is releasing their album/mv soon, the mv in which junhyung is featured in is also going to be released after that, and! tvxq is also also releasing an mv! plus! i'll be receiving my artbook soon as well! ah~ this is going to be a good week~
anyway, i ordered norwegian wood and snakes and earrings.

i've heard quite a lot about the book of them, especially norwegian wood, so i decided to try and read them. i've tried to watch the movie version of norwegian wood, but i only found it on megavideo, and i hate the player because it's always laggy on my browser. u__u so i though it would be better if i just read the book, and if don't like, i don't have to waste 5 hours trying to watch the movie. and about hebi ni piasu (aka snakes and earrings), i've seen the movie on youtube (with subs, of course). at first, i saw no point to it ~~except for it having a lot of sex, lmao~~. but i loved the ama character even though he was a little off, omg. ♥ (he was played by kengou kora, btw.) so i was a little pissed at the end. (i won't spoil it for you, so if you want to know watch it. but be warned, there are multiple sex scenes.) and once the movie starts coming to end, you get an idea of what the whole movie was trying to say. i wonder if the book will have as many sex scenes as the movie. hm...

on another note, i've been wanting to try and dye my hair like a dirty blond color, close to a brown-like color, maybe something like this color, but i'm afraid it won't look good on me lol. i've tried to photoshop it in just to give me an idea, but my dark hair color is giving me problems. i might do it anyway and if don't like it, i could always dye it again, even though my hair might become more damaged than it already is. /sob

i also want to try to do chunks of black highlights, like jessica, if the hair color goes well. pray for me~ ;_;

on another note, i made a flickr account. i doubt i'll ever post images, but i will favorite lots of amazing images there. just though i'd let you guys know~ :)

dictating dick taker.

2011-09-09T22:13:00.005-05:00

omg i love mitchell davis. and did you see when kyle closed the door with his super powers? he and kyle are unstoppable, lmao. ♡♡♡
anyway, we haven't been doing anything interesting in school, therefore there is nothing to blog about. but we did order our class rings on wendsday! omg i am so excited. *-* i still can't beleive that i am a junior and soon to be free from high school douche bags. but man, am i going to miss this place.
on another note, i ordered an art book from moral-extremist. i love her art; she is one of my favorite artists. i'll post a couple of pictures when it gets here, which i think will be wednesday.

but other than this i have no more ~~exciting~~ news. sob. u___u

1st day of school of year 2011-2012.

2011-08-22T17:25:00.002-05:00

welp, i was dreading going back to school, but i'm glad it's over with. and i'm not gonna lie, this school years seems more promising that my last two years. i love most of my classes and teachers already!

my schedule for this school year:
1. english 3 [krantz]
2. algebra 2 [moore]
3. digital media [davis]
4. adv. journalism (yearbook) [cassell]
-. lunch!
5. physics [gregory]
6. art [sorrells]
7. theater 2 [watlington]
8. us history [walker]

• english 3.
i had ms. krantz last year for english 2, and she was literally crazy. but she was an interesting human being, so i'm glad i got her again. and for first period! she will surely wake me up, lol. i also fun people in the same class as me. this will be great. last year, she talked quite a lot so sometimes we didn't have any work to day. lmfao. she will go on an on just to answer one question that could've been answered with a "yes" or "no." and there's this one kid that always makes fun of her, and he's taking the class with me. i will enjoy this a lot.

• albebra 2.
i hate math. a lot. but the teacher seems like he's a pretty cool guy. and our classroom is packed! there are a lot of "bad" kids in my period, but the are hilarious as fuck.

• digital media.
this is like a photoshop class which i am looking forward to. yay~ we will be using apple computers and they look pretty sweet. i can't wait to get my fingers on them. *u*

• advanced journalism (yearbook).
i'm surprised that they let me in since i was a little late. but i'm glad they did! mrs. cassell is really young, so she's really down to earth. there's only girls in that class except for one guy. i'm really excited to get started. fun fun fun!

• physics.
eh. not really looking forward to this class, but the teacher is really witty. i like him, he's interesting. but with a witty teacher comes a witty student, omg.

• art.
the teacher's art is really extraordinary! and she's also very young, so she's really cool. i will have a lot of fun in this class.

• theater 2.
i had mr. watlington last year, and he is quite a character. lmfao. i am excited to see what we're going to do for 1act. btw, 1act is basically like a musicale/play that we write ourselves.

• us history.
because of all those years in social studies, i expect this class to be easy. i'm not sure what to make of the teacher just yet.

i remember.

2011-08-20T18:59:00.005-05:00

their voices are just unf. ♥
also, i start school on monday. le sobu. ;-;

my childhood homeboy.

2011-08-12T16:10:00.009-05:00

i'm just going to show everyone my mario shirt, lmfao. my sister wanted this, but it wasn't her size, so she gave it to my mom to put it back. and due to the lack of communication, my mom bought it. it's a size xl (i'm a medium), but it's perfect for sleeping in! i freaking love this shirt and omg i love mario. u___u

i'm adding this picture to let everyone what i will try to update my dailybooth more often now. let's get acquainted, yeah? c:

dream log #7.

2011-07-29T20:56:00.002-05:00

i haven't done a dream log in a while. ono;;;
mostly because when i try to right one i forget it, or they aren't interesting.

but last night i had a dream what me and my class took a field trip to a haunted playground. it's strange that i was the same age as i am now in my dream, but i only remember the teacher that took us to the playground was one that i had back in 7th/8th grade. and i don't remember the student's face, although i do remember that my friend better was there. and i don't know if i should call it a playground. it was more like a playhouse.
anyway, so we went to haunted playground/playhouse for whatever reason. there, we encountered several ghosts (lol), and each time we ran away to a new part of the playhouse. the ghost that i remember, though, was a male. he looked like he was from a visual kei/jrcok band and he kind of reminded me of ruki (from the GazettE). except his hair (which had blond, black, and pink) was in a ponytail and he had bangs. his lips were dark around the corners. he was around his twenties and tall. i don't think he had a name... oh, and might i add that he was very good-looking.
i encountered him when i picked up a picture of him. when i was coming back up from picking up that picture, there he was, staring back at me. i was somehow put in a trance.
also, let me interrupt to tell you that in my dreams, i am the like the female lead, haha~. (ah, dreaming is nice.) but i think he wanted me because i was the one that picked up that picture and took the time to notice him. orz
so, he walked towards me and bent over (being the midget that i am) until we were face to face. then he started telling me something (i don't remember what it was) and i repeated whatever he said. then he said something along the lines of, "will you be mine?" and i repeated that as well, haha. and the jrocker man shook his head and said, "no, that not what i meant." and i replied, "oh. yes." man, why am i so uncool around hot guys, even in my own dreams? u___u
i don't quite remember what happened next, but then my other classmates were freaking out because i was with that guy and started to try and wake me up from my trance. the picture guy got angry and then i don't remember what happened after that.. sob.

sleep deprivation makes me see stars.

2011-07-13T18:43:00.004-05:00

my sleeping schedule gets so fucked up during the summer. sobsob. i keep sleeping at either 2 or 3 in the morning, and waking up at 1 or 1:30. /wristsss
and summer's not all the fun. :-(
i hate that my parents have to work so much. we haven't gone anywhere or done anything. but summer's not over yet, so hopefully we'll actually be able to do something. (also, i really want to go to the zoo!)

i found some colored paper i didn't know i had, so i decided to learn how to make paper stars! :o they're actually pretty easy and fun to make, but i still need to practice. "OTL

100 FACTS.

2011-06-21T16:20:00.001-05:00

i was going to do a 100 facts video, but the hq recorder on my camera only records for about 13 minutes, and this is going to take a while (i know, i tried already.) i might just do it with just the regular recorder later, when i'm not being lazy. "OTL

001. "devil beside you" was my first asian drama. ever.
002. "yukan club" was my third drama, and was how i discovered KAT-TUN, my first jpop group and the first asian music group to enter my music play list.
003. the GazettE was my first jrock group, "filth in the beauty being my fist song by them.
004. big bang was my first kpop group, "haru haru" being the song i heard.
005. dbsk my second kpop group, with "mirotic."
006. chicken is my favorite food. but you probably already knew that.
007. i'm a virgin. *thumps up*
008. i haven't had a boyfriend since 8th grade (about 3 years).
009. sometimes, my dreams predict the future, but it's usually only settings that i'll be in, not events.
010. wolves are my favorite animals.
011. i name my moles after people who have the same mole on the same or opposite location. i have an angalina jolie mole.
012. sailor moon was my first anime.
013. strawberries are my favorite fruits. then mango, then jicama, then pineapple.
014. i enjoy looking at/watching creepy shit.
015. planning on being a cosmetologist or teach english in japan/korea. haha;;;
016. math is my worst subject. science comes second.
017. enlgish is my best subject.
018. i actually like reading. but only what i want to read.
019. i want to marry someone not of my race.
020. i want twin babies. ;u;
021. i want at least one boy.
022. mario + donkey kong = luv
023. i like trees. :|
024. oak trees, willows, japanese maples, and sakura trees are my favorite.
025. i hate musicales. ಠ_ಠ
026. i prefer action and horror movies.
027. i freakin' love cartoons. mother fucking tom&jerry, looney toons, flapjack, ed edd & eddy, courage the cowardly dog...yeah.
028. shinee biases: onew, key, taemin, minho, jonghyun. (minho and jonghyun can go either way.)
029. my whole life i've only had one dog (which my mom gave away) and a couple of fishes (that died) as pets.
030. i literally listen to all types of music. they just have to be catchy.
031. i have some crazy ass dreams with people i have and haven't even met. they're alice in wonderland crazy. LSD!!1!
032. i've never seen "the notebook."
033. i didn't cry during "titanic." /pokerface
034. i love love loveee nail polish. oUo ♥♥♥
035. i enjoy nail art.
036. i also love doing make-up. esp on halloween. *u*
037. however, i don't wear make-up myself due to my being lazy and not wanting my face to be weird looking when i don't have any on.
038. i cuss like i get fucking paid to do it.
039. i am nicer online than i am in real life. being online gives me time to calm down and think things through.
040. i have had about 3 "relationships." they were all before highschool, so nothing serious.
041. they all lasted about 3 months or less. lololoooool.
042. i don't give a shit what anyone says about my voice. i know i can't sing, but i'll sing to whatever the hell i want.
043. when i get "ghetto," i'm like luan legacy and kingsley mashed together.
044. these are my favorite candy everrrr. *U*
045. rips/xtremes come second as my favorite candy.
046. chocolate is third.
047. i downloaded "sugar pain" by the GazettE because of ruki's sexual noises. I REGRET NOTHING.
048. teach me how to ~~dougie~~ crip/c walk. :(
049. i hate being labeled as "the quiet one" in class. WELL DUH BITCH, THERE'S NO ONE TO TALK TO.
050. i still remember and sing all the old hip-hop songs (smack that, i think they like me, laffy taffy, ms. new booty, ect.) "OTL
051. i get bored with shit too easily and i hate that sometimes.
052. i love those drama-like mvs.
053. having to use the bathroom but have no actual bathroom available is the worst feeling2 in the world.
054. if you tell me to answer truthfully, i will answer truthfully or not at all (to avoid hurting your feelings). dunno why.
055. i have control over some of my dreams.
056. i don't smoke or drink.
057. if my future fiance wanted to go to a strip club as his bachlor party, he can go. but i will also be going to one.
058. either kana kimi (jdrama) or you're beautiful (kdrama) win at being my favorite drama of all time.
059. i eat slow.
060. pizza is my second favorite food.
061. my hair grows fast.
062. i have long thumbs.
063. i hate those damn forwarded messages. please stop ok, it's not real.
064. don't text much.
065. i hate when people have their own pictures as their backgrounds. if you're sexy, i understand. but 99% of people it's a big fucking NO.
066. i put on chap stick/carmex before i go to bed.
067. never been kissed.
068. i don't like pokemon. however, i do like the actual pokemon. lol, the show kinda repeats itself.
069. i used to be scared of dolls because of chucky.
070. besides humans, school the thing thing i hate most in the world.
071. i hate doing any type of work.
072. people have to start conversations with me because i won't start them.
073. i like playing dress up games. c:
074. i criticize pretty much everything, even my own shit.
075. i never really got into harry potter. i'm waiting for all the movies to come out for a movie night.
076. i will always want the easy way out.
077. i will always try to see things from your/different perspectives and will find good and bad things about it.
078. never tried bubble tea. ;A;
079. rock lee (naruto) and honey (ohshc) are my favorite anime characters of all time.
080. i hate watching sad movies in public because i don't want to cry in front of other people.
081. you know those moments when you wake up and you just hate everything? that's my life. everyday when i'm around shit loads of people.
082. samm is the only person i can truly be myself with.
083. i like all types of men. black, white, indian, chinese, taiwanese, japanese, korean, mexican, all of them. but you have to be good-looking because i am a shallow bitch.
084. above collar bones, big hands, nice long fingers, and lip biting, a boy that smells good is A+.
085. i'm ok with skinny guys; they don't have to have abs.
086. i don't even care if you're not skinny. just be cute, ok? ♥ C:
087. i'm not afraid of spiders like everyone else. i kill them and get on with my life.
088. i burp a lot and sometimes they're loud. i can't help it! :C
089. i like zoos.
090. i do like at porn. i don't masturbate or do anything whih it, haha. i just find it...interesting, i guess?
091. if you wear make-up every day, keep wearing it or i'll notice and your face will look pale and weird to me. WHY DON'T YOU GUYS ONLY WEAR MAKE-UP ON SPECIAL OCCASIONS?
092. don't know if i should beleive in love or not. don't want to be disappointed.
093. sometimes, when i dream about myself, whatever it is i am doing, i'm naked. and i don't seem to notice until after a while. and i'm always running towards or away from something.
094. if you need someone to talk to, i'll listen. i don't care if (you think) i like your or not. no matter what it is, i'll be glad to listen and try to help, if needed.
095. I LOVE MONEY!! because i love the shit i can buy with it.
096. my favorite writing utensil is a pen with a benjamin franklin on it. 8D
097. i don't like fancy restaurants. if you're going to take me to eat, take me to chik-fil-a.
098. don't buy me flowers either. they're nice once in a while, but i prefer chicken.
099. i don't trust anyone. it's nothing personal, but every time i trust someone with the smallest thing, they let me down. i get tired of being disappointed.
100. my dream is to meet all of my biases and hug them. no really.

more mail!

2011-05-09T18:04:00.007-05:00

the stuff i ordered from ulzzangglasses@tumblr arrived today!

brutal fyzzed~

2011-05-05T17:26:00.005-05:00

hello!
sorry i haven't been updating - school been pretty busy with summer coming and all.
anyway, the shirts i ordered from fyzzed and ghosts are here! :D

also, i'm going to submit an application to pizza hut. hopefully, i'll get the job because i need something to do this summer and the money. :/
if i do actually get it, it will be my first actual job, lol. please Lord, let me get this job. ;A;

don't get funny with my money.

2011-03-21T17:35:00.005-05:00

a video i made yesterday because i was so bored.
my camera has a sucky recorder, so it's all grainy, blurry, and dark sorry. :/
i apologize in advance for the nightmares you will be having.

also, new layout.

2011-03-17T19:57:00.010-05:00

i just wanted to update so have a random image what was meant for my poupee girl. .-.
i am currently on spring break and i haven't done anything or gone anywhere. hopefully, i will go somewhere this weekend.

but i'm trying my best to get along.

2011-03-09T18:23:00.006-06:00

( via jagged smiles )
today, i have come to the realization that i truly hate being around most people. i tolerate some, and i love others when they leave me alone.
i try my best to be kind and hold my tongue from saying something that might hurt someone's feelings, even though they don't think shit through when they talk to me. and i'm tired of it, i'm sick of all the bullshit that they throw at me.
like today, we had an assignment in english and it involved computers. so i sat next to a boy because he really didn't have any friends in that class, and then i said, "hi, (name)." and do you know what fuckery came out of his mouth? "hi, i don't really like you." i would've been completely ok with that, except i didn't do shit to the kid. i never picked on him, never talked about him, or anything like that about anyone, for that matter. like, damn, if you're going to hate fine, i don't give a shit, but at least have fucking a reason to. oh, you don't like me because i'm me and trying my best to go through every day with all of your fucking bullshit? okay. i'll truly make you hate me now.
and about a month ago in chemistry class, lord knows what we were talking about, but this bitch says to me, "it's ok, you don't matter." bitch what the actual fuck? i don't even talk to anyone in that class. is that the reason you said that to me? you shouldn't say that to anyone. you don't know what the fuck they go through, and maybe hearing that come out of your idiotic mouth was all they needed to end it.
i just can't beleive that most people are so stupid.

i'm just tired of all this shit i put up with, and then i wonder why i do it.
if you want something to hate, it'll be my fucking pleasure to make you regret that.

charming rockstar.

2011-03-02T12:35:00.006-06:00

i love nail polish, you guys. ;A;
the colors used are: rockstar pink (extreme wear) and charming rose creme (NYC), hence the title~

removed toenails!

2011-03-01T18:38:00.009-06:00

so, i've had my left big toe infected for a couple of weeks (disgusting, i know) and i don't even know how! so my mom and dad forced me to go see the doctor. i was reluctant to go. but it turns out she was super nice! and honest about the whole thing - the pain i was going to feel and all that. she told me my toe was so bad, that she was going to have to remove my toenail, which i was ok with. i didn't really care, since it was going to grow back anyway. what i did care about, however, was the pain i was going to have to endure. i was so scared, i cried. "OTL
as it turns out, the worst pain i felt through out the whole process was the second needle going through my toe to numb it, and it didn't even hurt that bad. it was like i was going to a dentist and having them stick a needle in your mouth to numb the inside. i didn't even feel a thing and i was so amazed. so i got my toenail removed and some skin stuff. i was too scared to look, and i didn't even want to know what they were doing (but they told me, anyway).
i was appalled at how much blood could come out of a toe.

also, random edit picture of legs! kind of relevant? i'll start adding pictures from now on, to make posts seem interesting. x)

skinny doesn't mean being attractive.

2011-02-19T13:51:00.006-06:00

i do not want to lose weight. in fact, i don't care about my weight and love my body just the way it is.
i am so sick and tired of all these "i want/wish to be skinny" posts. if you want to be skinny, i'm okay with that, i don't mind, it's your choice. but don't you go and try to achieve that but binging and starving yourself; you and your body don't deserve that kind of treatment. where the fuck does that lead you? to the land of the dead, that's fucking where. not to mention that your body get all gross looking because you couldn't see yourself as beautiful in the beginning.
if you want to be skinny, then do it right: exercise, eat right, but also allow yourself a treat every once in a while. stop being selfish. think about those who do care.

you're lovely.

2011-02-07T12:12:00.003-06:00

every time i eat something that gives me food poisoning and then makes me throw it up, i stop eating it. i don't even care what it was, i just stop because i hate puking and the disgusting feeling that it gives you. and when i thought of this, i wondered why bulimic and anorexic people exist. and then it hit me: they want to feel and be so damn beautiful, that they're willing to put themselves through all that pain. but then, for who? if a guy or a best friend or something didn't like you they way you were before you starved and made yourself puke, then they simply don't deserve you. why waste your time trying to get someone else's approval if they don't like the real you? why go through all that by yourself when the world does have people who will love you no matter what size you are? beleive me, people who love despite physical appreance do exist, you just have to stop pleasing the people who only look at physical appearances, and start looking at that someone. guys, this means you too. i know guys have problems too.

and ever had a problem or situation that you actually wanted to fix and make better, but didn't know how? my sister woke me up at 1 in the morning because she had a nightmare. at first i was angry, but then i heard her sobbing. i kept asking what was wrong but she just kept crying. i just asked her if she wanted me to go sleep with her, to which she said yes. and i hugged her for a couple of minutes until she finished crying. this was all i could do to comfort her. never in my life felt so useless.

i am boring and this is a boring post.

2011-02-04T19:01:00.005-06:00

( via my poupee )
i finally got this gorgeous necklace, along with my earrings, a couple of days ago in the mail, and i am in love with it. *o*
however, i have not received my nana ring and i'm afraid that it's lost in the mail. "OTL i hate how a worry about things. :c why am i like this.

on another note, i have a new layout! and it's non navigational, too! finally. i've been getting tired of always doing navigational skins, so i wanted to do something different. i like the results.

a broke a tv.

2011-01-21T22:22:00.006-06:00

i've been look for a sweater or something because i really want to do this to the back. and then, i would look like a total bad ass/boss. this is just to remind me, though.

ANYWAY, yesterday when samm and i came home from school, and the two of us were horse playing (like always). i shoved her SLIGHTLY (see how i'm emphasizing the word?) and she bumped into the top part of my "desk." and since it isn't nailed down or anything, it fell over along with everything else. luckily, the clock that was on top of my printer/scanner stopped it from falling all the way down and crushing my precious laptop, but the tv, however, was not so lucky. it broke. IT FUCKING BROKE. why is it so fucking fragile, dammit? like, nothing even fell over it. luckily, we got it replaced without a hassle.

THE END.

WHY DON'T I OWN THESE?

2011-01-16T10:51:00.003-06:00

look at these gorgeous heels! i don't really wear heels, but i would totally wear these! i'd be even sexier than i am now (lololo /shot). i want them in every color available, especially/or just black and white, because those two colors look great with everything.
oh man, oh man! i hope there's some with smaller heels, though, or else i would fall and break my face. "OTL

your luv + my luv = supa luv.

2011-01-14T14:44:00.003-06:00

oh man, oh man. brb, crying. dying. tUt

the world is disgusting to me.

2011-01-10T20:07:00.005-06:00

camryn: 1,815 TWEETS?! LOLOL. SORRY, BUT YOU HAVE NO LIFE.
me: NO, NO I DON'T. THE OUTSIDE WOULD IS A TERRIFYING PLACE. "OTL
camryn: what's so scary about it?
me: everything, once you think about it.

( via twitter. )
do you ever realize this?
you live everyday of your life ~~knowing~~ forgetting that you could die at any moment and at any place. you may even die alone. and there are many ways you could die. you could get murdered, you could get in a car crash, or you could even choke on something to death.
we also forget that there are thousands of people starving all over the world, not just africa (but it is the main one), while some of us eat our food happily, without a care. others eat it, but then puke it afterward, simply because they want to be skinny. you don't appreciate what you have. you're beautiful. you should love yourself, or no one else will.
and some of use like to treat our friends/family bad, telling them bullshit that would rather not hear and might already know. saying one bad think about them just might be the push they need to comitt suicide. you may have not had that intention, but it is partly your fault for adding to their depression. people need to realize that everyone is not as strong as they seem; grasp that shit. comprehend that sometimes your useless thought aren't needed. know when to say something and defend yourself, but also know when to keep your mouth shut.
also, know who to talk to and who to avoid. people are getting raped and killed and shit because people are dumb enough to talk to people they have never even heard of. and avoid people who talk bullshit just for shits and giggles. they would be the ones who say shit about you. again, know when to defend yourself and when to keep your mouth shut. also know when to take a hint.

there are also murderers, rapists, pedophiles, ect. out there in the world and people can't avoid because of some of the reasons i already stated above and i realize that sometimes they can't. remember to always fight back when you can.

have you not looked at the news lately? you can't just turn off the tv and pretend this isn't the world we're living in. it's happening right now, this very second.

keep your head down.

2011-01-09T19:26:00.005-06:00

i had to have this on my blog. it's just too amazing and sexy not to have. *-*

2011 NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS.

2011-01-01T00:44:00.000-06:00

i will start doing this ever new year.
and some of this you will see each year because i don't accomplish anything. "OTL

become less shy when i first meet someone.
i'm not taking shit from anyone. idgaf if i become a major bitch. i am done everyone's bullshit.
get driver's licenseeee, huuhuuhuu. *U*
in getting driver's license, i need to get a car.
in getting a car, i need get a job.
in getting a job, GET MONEY.
SAVE MONEY.
get better at art stuff (ie. hands, feet, ect.) and learn how to draw comic pages.
finish at least one of my [short] comics. u_u
get better in math and science.
~~get a life.~~ LOL INTERNET.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2010-12-24T18:01:00.004-06:00

(( BATHS | lovely bloodflow ))
ok, so the video is irrelevant, but it is quite nice to listen to. :)
also, we got a brand new tv for christmas! no more fighting over the control! :D

society.

2010-12-22T13:10:00.002-06:00

i love how most people are like, "i am my own person," but they are truly afraid to be.

weight:
society makes you beleive that you have to be "skinny" in order to be be one step closer to being beautiful. that is why you all you see in ads are skinny people. this is one of the reasons why we have women and even men with eating disorders, both ways: not eating and over eating.

make up:
all you see on ads and tv shows are women with shit loads of make up. but not only the women, men have to wear make up, too! but when you or they take all that junk off their face, all i see is ugly. you know why? because all that clown stuff ruined what was your already beautiful face. don't beleive me? google it and you'll see.

men:
society as led you to beleive that men are the bad ones here. they make you think that man are the only ones that can rape, murder, beat women, ect. but that's not true. women can do all of these things as well. people are just too stupid to figure this out on their own.

homosexuals:
ah, my favorite subject. society also makes you beleive that homosexuals are beneath us, and that lesbians want all they girls that they come in contact with and that all the homosexuals want all the men that they have come in contact with, but that's not true. love isn't easy to find. and what in the hell have they done to us? and even if they had done anything at all, it's nothing compared to what we have done already.
i read about an old man and his partner. they were gay. his partner had gotten extremely sick, so the old man took him to the hospital. but when he came to visit his love the next day, they wouldn't allow him to see his sick partner because he was gay, and took him away to jail. the old man's partner died, all alone.

it sickens me to know that i have to live with people with such disgusting and idiotic thoughts.

i make the cutest things look so badass.

2010-12-20T17:28:00.010-06:00

"money just tickles you, doesn't it?"
--my mom

in all honesty, yes! yes it does! i love money! i love so much because i can buy things with it. i will do [almost] anything for money! idk what it is about it that makes me go mad for it, rofl.
so i went to get my yesstyle package from the post office today! i love getting mail. *u*

and here i am, modeling my new stuff~ :D

my mom gave me an extra $50 for christmas, and my dad also gave me an early christmas of $75. BRB. going to buy more stuff from yesstyle!

also, does anyone know where i can download "mercy street cover" by emy reynolds?

[edit:] i'm money-less again! i spent all of my christmas money on more stuff from yesstyle, and samm lent me $20, ahaha;; my parents weren't too pleased about this. but on the bright side, i now want have to spend $150 dollars on fattening fast food. ANYWAY, this is what i bought:

(( right click >> view image ))
but they probably won't be shipped til january 11th, due two my shoes and a shirt are "waiting for stock." BUT IT'S OKAY~ I GET NEW SHOES! :D /edit

finally got off my lazy train and posted these.

2010-12-16T19:46:00.004-06:00

*picks nose*
*flicks boogers at you*

rant: love.

2010-12-15T20:58:00.002-06:00

people throw the word "love" around too easily.
i hate when they do that, especialy if they don't know the meaning of the word. for example, you've only been with your girl/boyfriend for a week and all you hear on myspace, facebook, ect. is "i love him/her!" or "my baby girl/boy!" it sickens me. and then after about a month, it's over, and you delete everything about your "love." if it were me, i would've fought for the person that i loves. how can someone just give up up so easily? i'll tell you the fuck why, because it wasn't love.
and some girls go as far as to throw away their virginity to a guy that will probably never stay. and a baby probably won't help, either.

and i hate the way that people portray love in moves, dramas, and books. sometimes it just seems so fake - some of the stuff is so unrealistic. i want a real love, not a fake love. love at first sight? whatever. i also want to know what his personality is like, what he likes, and what he dislikes. i don't want to get married at first sight like they do in fairy tales.

me? i don't think i'll ever find love. and if i ever do, i'm afraid that that person will stop loving me eventually and leave me. i'm afraid that he'll one day grow tired of me and divorce me. i want me and my love to grow old together and chase each other in our scooters. i know that sounds unreal, but that's how i want to see myself in the future.

GEORGE.

2010-12-14T19:40:00.006-06:00

i named my mustache george! :{D
pretty old photo i took for an anon who wanted to know what i looked like on my formspring.
anyway, my stuff from fyzzed came today! i'll post pictures tomorrow. i put them to wash because they smelled like pickles to me, rofl. also, they didn't send me my "about that paper chasin'" shirt. :( instead, they gave me another "you ain't shit without your crew." but instead of telling them, samm decided to give the shirt to her friend. the douche.

so what are you guys doing for christmas~? :)

tired.

2010-12-10T21:36:00.003-06:00

i'm tired of lying.
i'm tired of being lied to.
i'm tired of people telling me what to do.
i'm tired of disappointment.
i'm tired of being lazy.
i'm tired of doing work.
i'm tired of not knowing stuff about stuff.
i'm tired of getting angry at the smallest things.
i'm tired of school.
i'm tired of not getting the things i want.
i'm tired of people bitching at me.
i'm tired of tolerating things and people.
i'm tired of being alone.
i'm tired of having a boring life cycle.
i'm tired of caring about insignificant things.
i'm tired of not caring about important things.
i'm tired of knowing that my dreams won't come true.
i'm tired of being tired.

CHRISTMAS CAME EARLY THIS YEAR.

2010-12-05T19:08:00.004-06:00

so my mom decided to give us our presents early this yes. since we usually get money for christmas, we (my sister and me) wanted to get kpop stuff! so i spent all of my $100 dollars on items from fyzzed and yesstyle. this is what i got:

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i got 3 out of the 6 things i wanted from fyzzed! :D

now, i have to wait for my dad to give me my christmas money. HUUHUU~
i'm probably gonna by my ipod first.

pew pew pew!

2010-12-01T18:26:00.009-06:00

~~irrelevant title is irrelevant.~~
so for the past few days, my friend's brother been hitting on me. LMAOOO.
she gave me a dollar so i would say hey to him and i did! because hey, i wanted that dollar. later, my friend told me that he was all excited, but then he was disappointed when she told him i did it for the dollar. then, he asked me if i (literally) wanted to "sing some christmas carols with him." and i'm like "lol, no."
and she then keeps telling him weird things about me. for example, she said i knew kung fu. he is now afraid that i will "karate chop" him.
ah~ life has been slightly interesting because of him, haha~

on another note, i happened to stumble upon fyzzed and their stuff is amazing! this is a note to myself that i need to save money for the following:

_{(( right click >> view image ))}total: $144.79 + shipping

i'm going to be broke by the end of christmas. SOBSOB.

[edit 12.09.10]: i have decided to just add all the things i want to this post each time fyzzed adds new stuff! all the items that are faded out are things that i already have or that are being shipped to me at this moment. i will also edit the price!

an update. + music video.

2010-11-23T19:45:00.003-06:00

i have decided to start taking affiliates here, just because. :)
and i have added a tagboard; it was my old one from when this was a commission blog, lol;;;;
and i made a new layout! i like it, although i may not keep it for log, because that's just how i am.

this video is fucking amazing and twisted all at the same time.
i didn't know it was about anit-aboration until i read a comment and googled the lyrics.
and there were tits. tits were everywhere.

NEED TO REWATCH THIS, OMGGGG.

2010-11-15T20:39:00.005-06:00

OMFG GUYS. THIS IS ONE OF THE BEST DRAMAS OUT THERE! i laughed (almost) every 5 minutes, i swear! xD
just watch the video and see for yourselves, lmfao.

I LOVE GETTING STUFF IN THE MAIL.

2010-11-10T18:41:00.007-06:00

SO ALL OF MY STUFF CAME IN THE MAIL YESTERDAY!
i was too lazy to take pictures yesterday, blah.

i noticed that whenever i order at yesstyle, i never check the sizes. good thing my tiny! everything fits just fine!
the SHINee bracelet you can get here (but hurry! there's only a limited number of bracelets). it's a little too big for me. but i also have a tiny wrist. ;n;

also, i uploaded some of the stuff on my poupee account.

no ticks and all treat.

2010-11-08T12:18:00.008-06:00

halloween's over, i know, but i didn't get to go trick-or-treating due to my being at the haunted house. I WAS DISAPPOINT. :C
so i took out the make-up i bought for halloween and started doing random shit to one side of my face (i wasn't about to do both sides, because i'm a lazy shit).
actually, it wasn't so random because i had a reference pic from someone on tumblr.

i also did a different type of design (?), but i'm too lazy to upload it now. |D;;
i might upload it some other time.

colordripped.blogspot.com

not important, but i want to type anyways.

2010-10-27T18:53:00.005-05:00

i'm deeply sorry i hasn't been updated this blog much; my life hasn't been very interesting lately (not that it normally is, anyway).

i'll be working in a haunted house this coming saturday, so i'll be sure to post pictures of that, with my make-up and everything. i'll be playing a marionette/puppet in the christmas room. teehee.
i really want to go through it, but i have to work in it the last day. the first 2 days i was supposed to go, but i wasn't feeling well and i didn't feel like going, anyway. baw.

also, i made a new layout for FROZEN BULLETS!

aaaaand i'm pimping out 15STAIRS.BLOGSPOT.COM; it's where all the info to my original characters/stories is located at.

; A ;

2010-10-11T18:58:00.002-05:00

click on the image to go to the website.
I REALLY WANT THESE SHOES!
can someone give me the direct link. i've searched and searched but i still couldn't find them. maybe i overlooked them? please help me... ; A ;

ranting meme: day 27 - your parents. + dream log #6.

2010-10-03T11:50:00.006-05:00

i love my parents sfm. even though they do get on my nerves a lot.
i wish that they could live forever, but i know they can't and won't. and when the day comes that they are taken from me, i don't think i'll be able to take it.
it will be one of the worst days of my life. even thinking about it makes me cry.

the shimmycocopufsss dream.

ok! enough sad talk! it's ~*dream log*~ time!

before i start, i should mention that shimmy was serious and cool (not to mention sexy) in my dream, not retarded and funny like he is in his videos. xD

anyway, i dreamt last night that i went to a weird wizard school with shimmy and we were roommates (don't ask me how, it's a dream, yo). he went to this crazy party what i didn't want to go to. well, when he came back, he was about to pass out. it was like 3 in the morning. anyway, his mom was going all crazy because he hadn't called that day and she wanted him to call every day to make sure he was ok.

because shimmy didn't call his mom, he went to the wizard harry potter market to buy supplies to make an apology cake for his mom. anyway, i was the clumsy person in the dream and i kept casting spells and shit at random things and bringing them to life. shimmy was the one who had to clean up all the mess.
he got tired of doing so and made me sit in the buggy while he pushed me around (which was quite fun btw).

later, i meet his mom. SHE WANTED US TO GET MARRIED, LOL. what even.

anyway, just thought i should share. it was a lot cooler and amazing in my head, lol.

if you don't know who shimmy is, here is his main youtube channel, and here is his second channel.

[edit 20111229] i have deleted all of the 30 day ranting memes. but because this also has a dream log, i won't be deleting this post. end edit.

SHINee meme.

2010-09-05T19:32:00.001-05:00

Onew (Lee Jinki)

[x] You like to eat fried chicken.
[x] You’re very clumsy.
[x] You hit your head on things a lot.
[ ] You try to be funny or witty but people almost never laugh.
[ ] You have a very bright smile.
[ ] You don’t like getting too close to kids or animals.
[ ] You are a leader.
[x] You don’t seem like something that you really are.
[ ] You don’t like your actual name.
[ ] You are somehow like tofu.

Total: 5/10

Jonghyun (Kim Jonghyun)

[ ] You’re very frank.
[ ] You want attention from someone but you never really get it.
[ ] You know how to celebrate by yourself.
[ ] You can sing very well.
[x] You’re short.
[ ] You seem like a leader type, but you aren’t.
[x] A close friend who is younger than you is taller than you.
[x] You like pulling pranks.
[w0t.] You’re very…guy.
[ ] You can wake up early.

Total: 3/10

Key (Kim Kibum)

[x] You are so much like a mom.
[only to samm.] You nag; A lot.
[ ] You have many different talents.
[ ] You hate to lose.
[x] You don’t like your old, baby pictures.
[ ] You’re afraid of heights.
[ ] You’re a blunt person.
[ ] You are good at cooking and household activities.
[ ] You can DANCE.
[ ] You’re a sort of tsundere.

Total: 2.5/10

Minho (Choi Minho)

[ ] You’re very sporty.
[ ] You’re very competitive.
[ ] You’re tall.
[ ] Some people think you can’t do anything, but you can.
[ ] You’re great with kids.
[x] You will do anything for the person you love.
[x] You don’t like talking too much.
[x] You’re generally quiet.
[ ] You like soccer.
[ ] You’re charming/charismatic.

Total: 3/10

Taemin (Lee Taemin)

[ ] You are the youngest of your siblings or group of friends.
[x] You like ice cream.
[ ] You’re very innocent.
[ ] You’re child-like.
[x] You are pretty shy.
[ ] You are/were bullied somehow.
[ ] You use your cuteness to get what you want.
[ ] You are a big fan of Michael Jackson.
[ ] You absolutely hate bugs.
[x] You aren’t very good at cooking.

Total: 3/10

eh.

2010-09-04T22:45:00.000-05:00

i'm so sorry i haven't been updating my blog. school started august 23rd and nothing really interesting has happened. i do love all of my classes, though! especially 1st period. (: the first 4 periods seem to go by a little slowly for me, but after lunch they fly by, which is a good thing. chemistry and algebra are the only classes that i'll probably have trouble in. sigh.
i've also been very tired since school started. but on the bright side, i don't have any trouble falling to sleep at night. i do, however, have trouble staying awake in school. but that kinds cancels out so it's nothing different. :/

i haven't seen any interesting guys around. ok, there are some interesting guys, as in they're ok, but none for me.

anyway, my birthday is next month (october), so i'll be getting some monies. i'm still debating on wether i should get a rilakkuma costume, or these really pimp shoes. ah~ decisions decisions.

on another note: me and my sister made a plan. when i graduate, as my graduation present, i want to go to tokyo, japan with a couple of close friends. and i'll be taken my sister, samm. and when she graduates, she'll ask for a trip to seoul, korea. pretty smart, eh? ;D

ok bye.

school. + dream log #5.

2010-08-14T14:16:00.002-05:00

well, school starts on the 23rd for me. DO NOT WANT.
although, i am kinda excited, just don't want to do any school work.
BY THE BY. yesasia finally sent me the e-mail and my earring should be here either monday or tuesday. i'm still waiting on yesstyle, though. i doubt my backpack will get here on time, now. :/ i should've checked neither or not the shit has been in stock. RAGE.

ANYWAY, LET'S START THE DREAM.
ok, so, i was this famous singer in korea (DON'T LAUGH). my group members were all busy with some other stuff so and i went to visit the GazettE by myself because they were helping us with our group's song. our theme/concept was visial kei/rock. after we were done, kai fed me lunch that he made (so cute) and then i left.
later, junya came by and so did uruha. idk why either of them came, and together of all things. my teammates were gone and it was getting awkward, so i thought we should go and do something. so we went to a bar AND WE GOT CRAZY DRUNK.
i was so drunk, that i started taking off my cloths. and...that is all that happened.
i woke up and the guys were on either side of me. i almost had a heart attack, lmfao. they were half-naked but completely gorgeous. * U *
anyway, i left. and they woke up a few minutes later, screaming. THEY THOUGHT THEY HAD SLEPT WITH EACH OTHER LMFAO.

also, if you don't know who junya is, click here.

that is all. GOOD DAY.

NO MORE BRACE FACE.

2010-08-02T20:28:00.000-05:00

DAS RITEEEE.
i got my braces off today! :D
i got my retainer, too! it's blue~ i have to wear it every day, but i think this might be a challenge for me when i got out. now, whenever i speak, i have a b, noticeable lisp, rofl. like today, i went to my favorite fast food place and the man and lady taking my order couldn't understand be because of the lisp my retainer gave me LOL. but, it seems that for the next 6 months, life with my retainer will bring me some fun times~

also, i have been notified about 3 days ago that my ninja pants have been shipped to me! i hope they're tomorrow or wednesday. EXCITiENT.

[edit:] last night i realized that my retainers glowed in the dark :O that's pretty sweet. and my lisp magically went away over night! well, i still have it slightly when i pronounce any words with an "s" in it, haha~ xD
and, my upper teeth kinda hurt a little. :c

ok, that is all~ [/edit]

lucifer.

2010-07-21T13:47:00.001-05:00

taemin: getting more booty than a toilet since 1993, and the reason we all go to jail.

GAY HANDWRITTING MEME.

2010-07-20T04:50:00.006-05:00

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i am very bored. :(

The Handwritten Meme.
1) your handle/name/username
2) left or right handed?
3) favourite letters to write
4) least favourite characters to write
5) write "The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog."
~~6) tag 5 people~~

GOLF MIKE.

2010-07-11T13:50:00.002-05:00

recently (today, actually), i discovered a thai boy band/group called Golf Mike and they are so handsome and amazing. *__* so amazing and talented, that i need to share their awesomeness.

my first song and video of them. i am officially hooked. *q*
that ending deserves a gold star or something. xD

rant about people.

2010-07-09T15:10:00.000-05:00

i couldn't sleep last might because i was so angry last night, that and because of my insomia. i literally slept somewhere around 1:30 and 2AM.
what was angry i about? EVERYTHING.

CUTTERS:
first of, i know that you guys think you have it bad, or you may actually have it bad, and i know what you guys are going through because i've had those same ugly feelings before. the only difference between me and you is that i didn't cut. do you know why? because i wanted to change. i didn't want to feel the way i did. and i did change all of that. do you want to know how? by confronting my feelings and trying to view things in a different perspective. there are people who have it worse than you and some of them have the balls to actually do something about it. you don't think you're brave enough? find that special someone to show you how to be brave! be it a teacher, friend, family member, or a docter. just actually do something.

SUICIDAL PEOPLE:
what are you running away from? do you just want to see who cares or who suffers more? not only are you hurting you, but the people around you. open your eyes and open them wide! stop seeing what you want to see. change your view on the things that make you want to do such selfish things. living is way harder than dying. the reason why i'm still here is because i want to prove that i'm not afraid. yes, i may fail at many things, i worry that i may not find "true love," but i'm not afraid. despite what the world may say or think, i'm going to keep on going until i actually find something worth dying for. and more me, there's not that many things that give me that thought. and stop beating yourself over something that happens over the fucking internet. if someone hates you over the internet, than you must be some fine work in real life. that's something to be proud of.

PEOPLE BELOW 18 AND PREGNANT AND ABORTION:
abortion is a huge no-no on my part. yes, there are certain situations in which you should consider abortion and i do understand that. and i agree when that situation comes up. but just because you and/or anybody else simply not wanting the baby and wanting to abort it is out of the question. if you don't want your baby, give him/her to someone who does. someone who has the fucking balls to do something of worth. and if you're going to have sex, at least have the fucking decency to sure protection. and yes, i do understand that protection sometimes may not work and that may produce a baby, but as i said before: abortion is out of the question. adoption is another option.

BULLIES, BITCHES, AND SHIT:
one word for you: trash. burning you would be intoxicating for the rest of the planet, and we have enough of that. if you're going to make other feel worse, make sure that no one can make fun of you either. get your facts right before you open your shit hole. it's just embarrassing. and even so you still have no right to call out other people. it's like you bitches live off of drama. holy shit. you guys are disgusting, sad, and unworthy of my time. just GTFO. >:C

RELIGION:
stop throwing your thoughts and/or views on other people. whether they want to beleive in something or not is up to them. this option is open for their entire life time, ok?

HOMOSEXUALITY:
stop being afraid of people with a different orientation that you. you most likely ain't cute so no one isn't going to hit on you.
"homosexuality is a sin! ectectect." who the hell are you to judge? you read the Bible and think you know everything? how many mistakes where in that book before? people are still finding more about the writing and make edits in the Bible today so don't you date make idiotic assumptions. and even if this were try, quite frankly, i don't think this is the kind of God i want. and stop shunning your child because of this. you guys are worse than the furry kinds of animals.

ETHNIC GROUPS:
NO GROUP IS BETTER THAN THE OTHER. every stinkin' one of you have something good and bad. yes, some of you are worse then others. but to me, it's the people that get under my skin. it has nothing to do with your damn race.
"God is white! ectectect." bullshit. if your so religious, then stop comparing yourself to God. as i recall, He helped people from all over. why don't you do the same, only help yourself first.

CLASS:
"poor people are gross, ectectect." if you think this way, THEN USE YOUR MONEY AND FIX IT. selfish bastards.
"i wish i had more money, ectectect." get a job and stop asking for money. too young? wash cars or something. sulking isn't getting anyone anywhere.

TO ALL OF THE OPEN-MINDED PEOPLE OF THE WORLD: stay gold. the world could use more of you guys.

dream log #4.

2010-07-04T10:27:00.003-05:00

first of all, we dreams are very weird. i mean VERY WEIRD. my dreams are almost never normal. with that in mind, please continue~
second of all: the setting. we lived in a VERY CROWDED place. kind of like where the aztecs lived, only more crowded and dirtier. and we got attacked by...something. idk what it was. the setting is very similar to the "silent hill" setting (dirty and weirdness wise).

SO ANYWAY, AGAIN.
we just got attacked by something. i was feeling dirty, so i went to go take a shower. our water was clean, btw, which was a good thing for all of us. my bathroom was like the kind in mexico, made out of concrete with no tub. and it had no windows.
so, i had gotten out of the shower and put on all of my clothes except for my shirt when this guy comes in without knocking. the douche. i know who the guy is irl, but i'm not going to give out his name (for the record, i think he's cute, but i don't like him in that way). for now, let's call him "mofopedobear." so mofopedobear barges in without knocking, and i quickly wrapped the towel around me. mofopedobear realized what he had down and starts to walk out, but decided to stay. (that's sounded weird, lol.)

idk what we were talking about, but he kept asking me questions which i only nodded to. AND THEN HE HUGGED ME AND KISSED MY FOREHEAD.

THE END.

btw, i'm only posting this dream because i think it was cute/sweet. in my head it was, anyway.
sorry if you think it was stupid and/or it made no sense to you. D:

FUN FACT: i dream in third person. 8)

mememememe.

2010-06-27T20:30:00.000-05:00

quiz stolen from jean-rong. ♥

10 Things About Yourself
1. i'm short.
2. i'm not very smart. but somehow i manage to pass school with a's and b's.
3. school sucks. :(
4. i hate doing house work.
5. i can't cook.
6. i have weird dreams.
7. i can't swim.
8. i am almost always broke.
9. i spend most of my money on food.
10. i wish i could fly.

9 Things You Wish You Had
1. money. ;A;
2. able to speak/write/understand japanese and korean.
3. no school.
4. the men on my inadvisable list.
5. ninja pants.
6. shoes.
7. a trip to korea and japan with friends/family.
8. paypal.
9. new ipod.

8 Ways To Win My Heart
1. smile.
2. don't be a mofo (at least not all the time).
3. have abs. huuhuu~~
4. buy me chicken.
5. give me m&m's.
6. give me hugs for no reason.
7. be yourself and be different.
8. stand up for yourself.

7 Things That Cross Your Mind A Lot
1. beautiful boys. "OTL
2. money.
3. m&m's.
5. dr pepper.
6. chicken.;
7. pizza.

6 Things That Make You Peace
1. friends.
2. family.
3. music.
4. m&m's.
5. dr pepper.
6. teriyaki beef jerky.

5 Things That You Can Say To 5 Different People Right Now?
1. i don't know.
2. i love you!
3. you're awesome.
4. let's go somewhere. :)
5. WASSAPPPP?!

4 Things You Do Before You Sleep
1. watch a bit of tv.
2. brush my teeth.
3. comb my hair.
4. put on deo.

3 Thing You Wanted To Do Before You Die
1. go to japan and korea.
2. get married and have kids.
3. eat chocolate.

2 Confession
1. i hate and suck at math.
2. i want to burn down the school. u__u

1 Last Sentence
hello~

what i got from the dolla' sto'.

2010-06-20T18:55:00.003-05:00

got back from my aunt's/cousin's house a few minutes ago~ it was awesome. 8)
went there because my aunt is the one who takes me to the orthodontist. anyway, once we ("we" because another girl went) got out, she took us to the flea market. didn't do much there. after the flea market, she took us to a dolla sto'. that's were i bought this amazing $2 makeup.

i don't wear makeup much, but for $2, yeah, i was gonna get it.
it's pretty good makeup for 2 buck, imo. and it has a variety of colors.
best $2 i ever spent. ;)

aaaaand, my aunt took us driving, er, taught us how to drive (my parents never have time sobsob). it was AWESOME. :D
considering it was my first time behind the wheel, i did pretty good. and no accidents!
it was at a motor park thing, of course, so it was legal. lmfao.

drean log #3.

2010-06-06T19:47:00.003-05:00

well, technically, this is #3, the rest just weren't posted on lj. xD
all of my other dreams are art-related and you can attempt to find the rest of the dream logs here. but from now on, they will be posted here.
AND I DREAM LOG BECAUSE I LIKE (SOME) MY DREAMS, EVEN THOUGH THEY'RE WEIRD, AND I WANT TO REMEMBER THEM.
even though what i start reading dream logs, i don't usually have mental pictures anymore. :C

ANYWAY.
weird dream time!
i had this dream where ruki, uruha (from the Gazette), and i were ~*vampires*~. they were so hot, btw. *A*
anyway, we were arguing over something. i think it was about turning or killing this human fool that i "loved" (in my dream i loved him, because i did/do not know who he is in real life (he was cute, nonetheless)), but he didn't know that i existed or was a vampire. i guess i stalked him?? so, ruki and uruha were both mad with jealousy. :D;;;
i tried to run away from our home/castle?-thing, but they both stopped me. lolololo;;;

+ TIME LAPSE. I FORGOT WHAT HAPPENED HERE. +
uruha cut the palm of my hand and drank my blood, WHICH WAS SUPER SEXY. then, he kissed me and made me drink my own blood and some of it trickled down my lips and he liked it off. -u-

point is: MY DREAMS ARE BETTER THAT YOURS

YEE YEE~

2010-05-31T19:44:00.000-05:00

let me tell you about my day today.

ok, so, today was fun day. it was pretty boring. we sat on a bench, next to some mofos who decided to play their drums and guitars and shit. imo, they sucked.
then, some people got wet. i was tempted to do so, too, but then i realized how nasty the water had gotten. grossssss. anyway, the people what were already wet, decided that it would be fun to get other people wet by hugging them. i was hugged quite a few times.
so then, it was time for us to go inside. that was also boring at first, but then they put on music and a bucnh of people started dancing, and that's when it started to get fun. i recorded it! i'll upload it to youtube later and you'll see why it was fun. ;D

also, this dude that i barely even know/talk to asked me out to prom for next year. i told him i was already going with someone, which is not a lie. if the guy that i am going him was serous, than it wasn't.
and, yesterday (which i forgot to add on my last post), i found out that my bisexual female friend used to have a crush on me.
DAMN I AM SUCH A PIMP. XD

anyway, that is all.

HAVE A NICE DAY! :)

internet rant.

2010-05-18T19:22:00.001-05:00

warning!:
rant and cussing like a mofo below.
*note: this thought came up after i read that a teen committed suicide after a formspring question. idk if this is real or not. either way, i'm gonna rant. >:I

i hate cyber bullying. IT'S THE FUCKIN INTERNET. holy shit. if you're gonna have the balls to bully someone, make sure you actually know the person. and if you do know what the person it like and are gonna insult him/her anyway (regardless if you know him/her or not), make sure you type something worth reading without all the bullshit and grammatical errors. make it worthy of the persons time.

and to those who are gonna commit suicide because of ridiculous bullshit THAT'S ON THE INTERNET: grow up. there's people who've had it worse than you and who are still going on, not giving up, even with their lives all fucked up and shit. then again, if you do feel like you need to die because if internet trash, go ahead and do us all and yourself a favor, and slice your throat. >:C

ok, now that that's out of my system, i feel so mean for saying that. :

FUCK IT.
it needed to be said.

i'm a retard.

2010-04-06T13:02:00.001-05:00

i didn't go to school today. why?
well, i want to the orthodontist yesterday to get "surgery" on my gums. there was nothing wrong with them except that my gums were covering a tooth that they needed to put a brace thingy on. so they foll had to cut part of my gum. it hurt a bit, even with the anastasia, or whatever you call it, shit. i could feel it when they were cutting my poor gum away. D: so, after we left, my gums would not stop bleeding and they were hurting a little bit. after a while, they stopped hurting but continued to bleed. i thought they would stop bleeding today. and they did, excpet with i brushed my teeth. and my tooth started to hurt (the tooth that was the whole reason for them to cut my gums away). so i was like "fuck this shit, i ain't going to school today." and i didn't. remind me to take a shot gun or something next time i go. :I

IDK I JUST THOUGHT I'D SHARE BECAUSE IT LED ME TO THINK BACK.

i remember in 3rd grade, this girl bought super glue to fix her cd that i accidentally broke the day before. i asked if i could borrow it. i glued my right index finger and thumb together with it. and when i tried to pull them apart, they wouldn't budge. and when my teacher asked why i did such i thing, i said, "I WANTED TO SEE IF THE SUPER GLUE WAS REALLY SUPER. D:"

if i were...

2010-03-29T20:55:00.000-05:00

If I were a month, I'd be May.
If I were a day of the week, I'd be Saturday.
If I were a time of the day, I'd be 12 midnight.
If I were a planet, I'd be Neptune.
If I were a sea animal, I'd be a dolphine.
If I were a direction, I’d be up.
If I were a piece of furniture,I’d be a painting.
If I were a historical figure, I’d be George Washingmachine.
If I were a liquid, I’d be hot chocolate or tea.
If I were a gemstone, I’d be diamonds. 8D
If I were a tree, I’d be an Cherry blossom tree.
If I were a tool, I’d be a paintbrush.
If I were a flower, I’d be a rose.
If I were a kind of weather, I’d be rain.
If I were a musical instrument, I’d be a violin or piano.
If I were a color, I’d be any pretty shade of blue.
If I were an emotion, I’d be calm.
If I were a fruit, I’d be a strawberry.
If I were a sound, I’d be the sound of lots and lots of birds chirping.
If I were an element, I’d be water or fire .
If I were a car, I’d be ...wait, do motorcycles count?
If I were a food, I’d be ...a strawberry?
If I were a place, I’d be Japan.
If I were a material, I’d be silk.
If I were a taste, I’d be sweet.
If I were a scent, I’d be vanilla.
If I were an object, I’d be a camera or a painting or a tree.
If I were a body part, I’d be lips or hands.
If I were a facial expression, I’d be emotionless.
If I were a song, I’d be hardcore.
If I were a pair of shoes, I’d be comfortable.

when i was a kid,

2010-03-19T20:56:00.000-05:00

- Post ten things you used to believe when you were a kid.
- Tag three people that won't do this anyway.
- Have fun!

When I was a kid, I used to believe that...
01. if you ate a watermelon seed, a watermelon would grow inside of you.
02. pokemon was real.
03. if i tried and flaps my arms hard/long enough, i would be able to fly or grow wings.
04. if i stared at something long enough, i could make it float. or at least make it fall.
05. the sun/moon would follow you around when you were driving, which explained why it didn't move.
06. if you stayed underwater long enough, you would grow gills. and maybe even a fin or two with a fish tail.
07. teachers lived at the schools.
08. while you sleep, you become another person/object/animal.
09. my tv was a portal.
10. every human had his/her own book. and everything he/she ever did, has done, or will do was written in it.

12 random fact about me~

2010-03-02T13:05:00.000-06:00

ohay. i have a major test tomorrow and i'm using this meme as a stress reliever.

12 FACTS ABOUT YOU.
01. I have long thumbs.
02. TOP/JaeJoong/Haruma are my future husbands.
03. I want to learn how to dance.
04. I'm a lazy mofo, but you probably already knew that.
05. I want contacts.
06. Mexican men scare me. They look like friggin' pedos.
07. If I could, I would want to become a vampire! Just for the hell of it. I wouldn't drink blood or anything. Gross.
08. Samm is a retard. Yet, she's so a amusing to me.
09. I want candyyyy. D:
10. My burps are loud. I burp louder than most boys.
11. I wish I had wings and could fly. :(
12. I have a stalker at school. HARDCORE CREEPY.

true mobster.

2010-02-22T14:12:00.000-06:00

click on the images for a larger view.
(( via vivian ))
1. i don't normally wear high-heels (in fact, i only swear sneakers and occasionally my boots), but these are pretty bad ass. they're like for a hardcore mafia chick (like myself, rofl).

2. I WANT THESE. except without the gold.

3. I REALLY WANT THIS BAG! it's soooo cute!

4. this hoodie is for a TRUE MOBSTERS such as myself, therefore, I need it. and it's ~*~reversible~*~. how pimp is that?

don't wish for tomorrow to come; you're wishing your life away.

2010-02-12T19:00:00.002-06:00

last night, it snowed in texas. this is the second snow fall in my life time. and this it the first time i got to go out and play in it. i couldn't the first time because i was sick and my parents said no >:(
i've seen snow before, but never like this. it's pretty cool. i envy the people who get to see it every winter. it's all soft and fluffy. i just hate that it's so cold and that it gets inside my mittens. xD don't take snow for granted kids. i sure as hell won't.
also, i tried to make a snowman for the first time, it came out ugly and all jagged. so i threw some of it at my sister, samm, instead.
tried doing a snow angel, but i rolled down our smallish hill instead because that looked a lot funner.
FUN TIMES.

IRIS SHOES.

2010-01-27T19:56:00.002-06:00

even been watching IRIS for the past 2 weeks nonstop. i hate that i anticipate actiona and find "love" scenes instead. also, T.O.P. DOES NOT HAVE ENOUGH SCREEN TIME. but he's pretty bad ass. ♥ and i love his hair~ ;O; his eyebrows are pretty darn sexy, too. B-)
did i tell you that i freak when i see him with that mi young girl. D: it's sad, really. BUT LOOK AT HIS ANGEL FACE. HOW CAN YOU NOT FREAK OUT?

also, i want these shoes. they're so white and clean. and pretty gangsta looking. I'D BE THE TIGHTEST FOOL ON THE BLOCK WITH THESE KICKS.

i was cool back then.

2010-01-25T13:22:00.001-06:00

so today after school, i came home, made my bed, and then went to the living room to watch tv. flapjack was on (♥♥♥!!) but i had already seen that episode i decided to watch the discovery channel. whales were on. and they were swimming. and somehow, me and my family (and my cousin, who the rode the bus with us) started reminiscing about how cool i was when i was a kid.

story #1:
i'm not sure how old i was, but i jumped off a trampoline (i'm pretty sure my dad told me to) and in i dove into the water (not sure where). my dad was frantically searching for me. then, somehow he got hold of my hair and pulled me up with it.
THE WAY MY DAD TOLD IS WAS WAY BETTER.
also, i think this is why i can't swim.

story #2:
it was my third birthday. and like all mexicans, we got a pig to make food out of. well, my dad left me in the backseat of his truck thinking, "she's just a kid. she can't do anything," and left to go do whatever is was that he needed to do. then, i climbed into the front set and did Lord-knows-what and the truck started going backwards. my dad noticed and came running and jumped through the window (he said).
again, the way my dad told it was way funnier. xD

story #3:
my mom told this one. i fell off of something and was like, "AHHH. I FELL." and my mom and dad were like "si. te diste en tu madre. (yeah. you hit your ass (rough translation))." my mom was on the phone with my grandmother at the time, so she gave the phone to me so i could talk to her. the first thing i said was," GRANDMA. I HIT MY ASS."

lmfaoooo.
even back then i was a hardcore kid. B-)

zapatos.

2010-01-19T14:01:00.001-06:00

ok so, i really want these shoes! D8
i'd buy anything if it's advertised by BIG BANG if i had the money. even if they advertised crap-on-a-stick. no lie. they are so amazing and good-looking.
i want the ones that SeungRi and DaeSung are holding. :I

haha, TOP always has to look cool, no matter if he's taking a dump. ♥
i wish i had TOP's charisma [i always wanted to say that word, rofl]; he's so confident.
and in my opinion, he should be, with his looks and everything. lmfao.
I'M JUST POOR LITTLE ME. /BAW

ps. i'm going to see the spy next door when it comes out. heeeeeee!

RAGE.

2010-01-05T14:26:00.000-06:00

since some MOFO BITCH stole my other phone, i want a sidekick. i think they're really cool. they kind of remind me of a DS. only in phone form. even though i don't really need a phone, excpet when i go out (which is almost never because i'm lazy). i also hate it when people call me for idiotic things. and texting is kind of fun. i just hate all of them chain messages and the stupid "hey, what's up?" conversations. but, since the sidekick has a keyboard type thing, unlike all of the other phones, i would gladly answer any messages JUST BECAUSE IT WOULD BE SO FIGGIN' EASY.

i like all of the colors. it would be very hard to choose. but blue is, and forever will be, my favorite color.

TOTAL PIMP.

2009-12-23T13:59:00.003-06:00

guess that i got in the mail yesterday?
MY EARRINGS. supper happy! x)
they're a bit heavier than i expected and smaller, too. but other than that, i'm quite happy with them. i feel like a total boss with them on now. :D

olol, look at my little moon. :B
please ignore my other boring earring. it's there so my hole won't close. rofl

ps. i'm starting on they keychains today. i'm doing A.N.JELL first. teehee. ♥

* U *

2009-08-27T13:36:00.003-05:00

GUESS WHAT I GOT IN THE MAIL TODAY GAIZ?! MY BIG BANG TEE.
i am soooo excited. i'm wearing it to school tomorrow, teehe! i love it to death!

click here if you would like to purchase one.

also, i haven't been posting any art because i'm a cunt. i don't feel like doing anything at the moment. maybe this weekend. :/

heartbreaker.

2009-08-18T18:54:00.006-05:00

HAVE YOU HEARD GD'S NEW SONG 'HEARTBREAKER'? IT'S FUCKING KILERRRR.
i absolutely loveeeee it. and his hair. not many asians can pull off the blond hair thing. haruma, jaejoong, and GD are the only one's that can. that i know of.

he sleeps so pretty~ haha. |D
dear GD,
WHEN ARE YOU GONNA LET ME TAP DAT ASS? lmfao. but seriously, butter my toast, yo.

also, today, when i turned on the computer and opened iTunes, ALL OF MY FUCKING SONGS WERE MISSING. WTF, MAN?! luckly, i had most of them saved on my cumputer. a few clicks and they came back. i still got to download some more, but, whatev. getting mad won't solve anything. :U

15.

2009-08-17T13:38:00.004-05:00

pictures of the dresses i tried on for my "quinceñera" because i have nothing else to do. :)

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2009-05-02T20:26:00.011-05:00

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profile.

2009-05-01T15:15:00.002-05:00

HEY YOU! WITH THE FACE!
the names xochitl bartholomew theodore sexypants, yo! i'm also known as THE TIGHTEST FOOL ON THE BLOCK. i am more then what meet's the eye; i'm truly a deep thinker. i admit i sometimes worry about what people think or say about me, but then i say to myself, "self, i don't give a fuck." CHICKEN IS MY ~~OBSESSION~~ ONE TRUE LOVE.
i hate watching sad and/or sappy love movies with people around - i hate crying in front of them. i also hate watching horror movies with other people who scream. i do, however, enjoy action moves with everyone.
i don't really beleive in love and i've never been in love. i think it's annoying. but i hope that someone someday can change my view on that topic, and i am looking forward to it. i really want to experience it for myself, to see why people go through the pain of it all. i want to share someone's warmth.

i plan on doing cosmetology and art on the side. maybe i'll own a little shop in the future. ◕ܫ◕
i'm also going to get an english major to maybe become an english teacher in japan or korea.

favorites.

interests: reading, watching stuff, the interweb, being lazy, art.
music: big bang, dbsk/jyj, miyavi, the gazette, lady gaga, 2pm, BEAST, u-kiss, jay park and SHINee.
books: crank, that was then this is now, identical, glass, the outsiders, rumble fish, tricks, and the lovely bones.
mangas/comcis: fruits basket, naruto [shippuuden], honeydew syndrome, zettai kareshi, doko ni iru yo, watashi ni XX shinasai, and death note.
movies: up, cloudy with a chance of meatballs, a millionaire's first love, koizora, kung fu panda, wanted, spirited away, howl's moving castle, princess mononoke, crows zero (II), hancock, ramona&beezus, how to train your dragon, tangled, hell boy, juno, the promise, house of flying daggers, and rush hour.
television: george lopez, flapjack, phenius and ferb, chowder, johnny test, johnny bravo, courage the cowardly dog, the powerpuff girls, edd edd n eddy, family guy, ATLAA, cartoon kat-tun, the boondocks, ghost whisperer, and SVU.
anime: vampire night, kimi ni todoke, death note, bleach, naruto [shippuuden], samurai champloo, nedeshiko shichi hinge/the wallflower, and OHSHC.
dramas: coffee prince, gokusen, personal taste, hana yori dango, boys before flowers, you're beautiful, merry me mary/mary stayed out all night, it started with kiss, mischievous kiss, devil beside you, kimi wa petto, zettai kareshi, hana kimi, nobuta wo produce, yukan club, yamato nedeshiko shichi hinge/the wallflower, and tumbling.

other.

loves: $$$, (day) dreaming, art/coloring, anime, manga, azn dramas, music, the internet, food, candy, sleep(ing), bamboo tablet, big hands with long fingers, bubble wrap, cool hair, tattoos, piercings, cute things in general, rilakkuma, domo-kun, hello kitty, music, photoshop, photofiltre, photoscape, ipods, japanese culture, jawlines, cute smiles (and dimples), ninjas, nail polish, nail art, mexican candy, m&m's, open canvas, people watching, good books, rainy days, shoes, shopping, clothes, fashion, singing, glitter/sparkles, colors/rainbows, stickers, trees, animals, graffiti, jewelry, and cool hair.
hates: school, homework, no money, ignorance, and pretty much everything else.

wishlist.

→ ~~ninja pants~~
→ shoes
→ motorcycle
→ gangster hoodie
→ learn fluent korean
→ learn fluent japanese
→ a trip to tokyo, japan
→ a trip to seoul, korea
→ cintiq wacom
→ cute rilkkuma costume
→ meet cute azn boys *A*
→ ~~new cellphone~~
→ new ipod
→ ~~new laptop~~
→ contact lenses
→ this cute purse
→ paypal
→ $$$